Hello, and welcome to the 9th edition of Behind the Music, a series with the story of lyrics, sneak previews, and other exclusive content from the making of Be Bold, releasing May 5th. Pre-order now! Also available on iTunes.
This week departs from my normal genres, so be prepared. Enjoy, and if you've liked my music and stories so far, please share with someone you think will enjoy it too! In addition to singer-songwriter and pop, I also compose in many other styles. Check out some of my works that won't appear on the album here!
Life. Relationships. Emotion. Some are pleasant, some are not. It has been a very uncomfortable experience to recognize and explore "negative" emotions throughout my life, as I'm sure it is with many of you. (I put negative in quotations because these feelings are a natural part of the wide array of emotions we experience). We'd all rather feel happy and content than angry or irritated. "Haystack" dives into this angst, departing from my regular style of songwriting. This is because facing my "negative" emotions is foreign to me, and I have spent most of my life ignoring or suppressing them. In working with my counselor, I am better able to recognize these as something not to be ashamed of, but rather to welcome as a complex part of my entire being. Adapted from one of my journal entries, this song is an aggressive lyrical statement with musical dissonance to stress my discomfort, but it also represents the catharsis of releasing these frustrations.
Yours in music,